Everyone has a story to tell being shaped by the things they do each day and by the things they carry. People are shaped by five main things things that they carry either being physical or emotional: items, dreams and goals, relationships, their personality, and memories. I will share with you the five things I carry with me everywhere I go.
I don't carry around a physical item with me at all times that means a lot to me such as a necklace or a lucky charm. Although some might ask, "Not even your cell phone?" but unlike most people these days it isn't my whole world to where I'm on it 24/7. I do however always wear two bracelets, one from a friend and another from a summer vacation, even though they have no special meaning to me. Without these I might freak out at first due to change but I would learn to live and it wouldn't be a big deal to me.
My dreams don't go too far as I don't like to look too far into the future. I basically hope to get into a good college and pursue engineering for a career (hopefully I'll survive). One goal I do have is to do better than my brother. Now if you've met him you'd know that'd be pretty easy to accomplish so why such a simple and easy goal? Ever since I was younger I've looked up to my older brother as a role model and mimicked what he does which has made me who I am today. Since he currently dropped out of school and is without a job (well he works for cutco but I don't consider that a job as he hasn't sold anything yet) I wish to excel more than him and keep my parents proud of me as they always have been (thanks to him).
As mentioned above, my brother has always been my role model since he influenced me greatly when growing up. If you know me quite well, you'd know that I'm not your "average" girl. I'm quite boy-ish, never wearing make up, never caring about how my hair looks, not spending an hour in front of a mirror, having more guy friends than girls, never caring about what I wear or look like or what others think of me. Thanks to my brother and his influences growing up, I am this way.
My personality is quite unique as I'm a very odd person. I consider myself to be nice and kind, always thinking of my friends. I'm also an extremely independent person; I don't like people helping me up when I'm down, holding doors open for me, anything I could do for myself. This can probably be attributed to my brother, once again. When we were younger he taught me to be strong and independent and not take crap from anyone else which has come in handy several times. I am also a chill and laid back which is probably the reason for my extreme laziness (which in turn leads to procrastination. Notice how all these blogs are done on the day of?) This also leads to me being shy and quiet which can sometimes be a problem since I hardly ever talk or speak up.
I always look at the past as what happened, happened and it cant be changed no matter how hard you try. With this I don't let memories influence me too much. Although there is one memory that has had an impact on me more than other which is my grandfather passing a year ago due to leukemia. My grandfather was the only family I have that I'm close with other than his wife, my parents and my brother. His death was quite sudden as we received a phone call a month after visiting him for Christmas from my grandmother that he had less than two weeks to live. I never was able to see him after I did that Christmas which taught me that life is unexpected and to enjoy every moment you have.
